Vision/manifesting journals,
How I became a believer!
Some 10 years ago, I acquired a work related back injury. 

Lesson 1. Don`t twist and pick up at the same time no matter how fit and strong you are!

Lesson 2. I am not invincible!

 My rehabilitation went on for some 18 months with a stay in rehab in Brisbane, which my Husband had great delight messing with people, telling them he was visiting his wife in rehab and neglecting to enlighten them that I was not a in drug rehab but back rehab. He had his fun and chuckle.

Lesson 3. I found my driver for needing to stay fit, to protect my back and manage pain.

Lesson 4. Yes, I am strong but even the strong break and fall hard.

Lesson 5. Life moves on for others much quicker than for me when you are recovering from an injury.

Lesson 6. Baby steps are torture.

When your life becomes a daily struggle to dress yourself and the independence of not being able to do the everyday tasks like being able to reach the washing at the bottom of the top loader machine.

Lesson 7. It`s OK to ask for help.

Think outside the box there is always more than one way to get the job done. Long BBQ Tongs became my best friend and knickers where optional on those to hard days.

Lesson 8. Appreciating the small luxury’s in life like shaving my legs, well that wasn’t going to happen.
I found Hubby was more than happy to shave them for me.

Lesson 9. Patience & acceptance. Men do an amazing job of shaving legs but aww it takes so long.
My days and weeks where scheduled around doctors, physiotherapist, acupuncture, massage, rehab. The drugs I had to take just to be able to attended these was crazy. I hate taking medications.

Lesson 10. Suck it up take the medications just so the recovery can happen. It`s not for ever just temporary. Sometimes we need a little support.

The problem with chronic pain is the brain doesn’t think rationally.
As time went on and my injury was slow to heal, I had to make the heartbreaking decision to take my long service leave to continue my rehabilitation which meant leaving a job which I thought I would retire doing.
That’s when I felt the black hole get deeper as I had no goal to get back to.
I relied heavily on a cocktail of medication to be able to function in society. Which as you know fuzzes the brain and takes over your body. Was I dependent arr yep.

Lesson 11. Use the tools you have. Stubborn drive was engaged.
I began searching for hope and found vision boards.
I grabbed a piece of cardboard and cut crazy pictures and ideas.
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Lesson 12. Medications can make you really think outside the box.

I glued and journaled and then put it on the wall which I glanced at each day.
I thought nothing of it and 3 years on we moved house and as I unpacked I pulled out the vision board I had created and I was very shocked at what I saw. The crazy visions and turned out to materialize and they were ideas that would not have come to me without the desperate need to dig myself out of the black hole which was caving in on me.

Lesson 13. Anxiety and depression is very debilitating.
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Each year now I create a vision book which I add to throughout the year.
So, have a vision and put it out there even it is the craziest outrageous ideas that pop into your mind and soul.