January 30th, 2017

Listening and acting on gut instinct 

​Listening and acting on gut instinct
Your body knows what is best for you, but at times we choose to allow outside influences and our own minds to shut down exactly what we need the most, resulting in more stress and not a solution.
Back in 1995 our daughter Jasmin passed away, I was left with the darkness of the night and when everyone was having sweet dreams. I was not!
 Each time I lay my body down to rest, as I became so exhausted and drifted off to sleep, only to woken by my daughter crying out.
I had nothing to get up for other than having to change my wet milk stained clothes as my milk was still in full production.
After many nights of struggling and fighting with what I felt I should be doing, or what a counsellor would recommended, I decided to listen to my inner gut on what I needed at this moment.
Nothing I could do was going to change the situation I was in, so I followed what would ease the pain short term so I could cope a little better each night.
At the time, I didn’t have a direct intention but I knew I had to do something so I jumped in the car. “It was 2am in the morning”. At the time just concentrating on driving was peace and a distraction.
As I drove I found myself back at the hospital where Jasmin was born and where we had come back to after leave the Prince Charles hospital in Brisbane. As we know the maternity hospital never closes their doors.
I hit the button of the intercom and spoke to one of the midwives who had been at the deliver and care of our daughter.
We sat in the maternity room where Jasmin was delivered, and at times in silence, but the comfort of just being in this space made me feel safe and at peace even just for a short time.
The choice I made that night to listen to my inner voice was part of my journey of recovery.
So, when you feel you need to fill a void and you may feel judged, or it may not be acceptable think about how a small choice to listen to your gut can support you along your journey.
 Life is your journey no one else’s.

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